Sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon, isiniwalat ni 2018 Ms.Universe Catriona Gray ang dahilan ng kanilang nakanselang engagement ni Sam Milby.
Ito ay nakapaloob sa naging panayam ni Karen Davila sa beauty queen sa vlog ng TV journalist.
Ito ang ilang excerpts sa nasabing interview.
KD: If it’s all right with you — you were with Sam Milby for how many years?
CG: We were together for four years.
KD: Four years. You’ve never really spoken about it, and I understand that. But many people wished you were still together. Is it all right to ask what essentially happened?
CG: There was a point in our relationship where I think he realized that he wasn’t ready to take it to the stage of commitment that we thought we were on — because he had proposed. And then a few months later, he realized that hindi pala siya ready. So that was very hurtful for me, and I was really blindsided at the time. I really tried to make it work. I was willing to adjust because, siguro, when you love someone, you’re willing to understand them. Pero it got to a point na at that age, and after everything we’d been through, kung hindi ka pa rin sure, I think that’s an answer already.
KD: But that also takes courage — for you to, in effect, walk away from it.
CG: Absolutely. It was one of the hardest things to do. But I realized that I needed to choose myself in that moment because I had already given so much and kept trying to adjust — “Ako na lang ang maggi-give dito. It’s okay, I’ll be understanding.” And I don’t look down on myself for that, because I did it out of love for the person. But at the end of the day, if it’s not a relationship that’s giving two-way… And also, as a woman, I want to have a family. I want to get married, and I’d love to be a mom one day. So I really want a partner who values me and sees that future with me too. Ayokong mag-wait around for someone to figure it out.
KD: Nagkita na ba kayo ni Sam?
CG: Yeah, we see each other because we’re under the same management.
KD: Until now?
CG: Yes! So if there’s a big management event — like when Cornerstone celebrated its 20th anniversary last year — we’ll see each other. And I think we’re civil naman.
KD: Every single woman who’s been in that situation, hearing you now, is probably saying, “Grabe, Catriona Gray has everything. Nararanasan din pala niya ‘yun! Hindi lang ako!” You get me?
CG: Absolutely. And I think that heartbreak taught me a lot because I was really shattered. Navigating that publicly was really hard too, because I didn’t want to talk about it — ang sakit niya eh. And everyone kept asking, “Anong nangyari? Bakit hindi kayo nagpo-post together? What’s happening?” And I was so broken. I was just like, “Please let me grieve.” But obviously now, I’m so much better. I went to therapy for two years. I became so close with my core group — my friends and my family — in a way that I don’t think I had before. It’s been a really healing journey. I feel like I came back home to myself. The version of me now is the healthiest I’ve ever been. My relationships with the people around me are the richest they’ve ever been. So in a way, I see both the blessing and the hurt. A year or two ago, I couldn’t even say that.
KD: Oh, wow. I agree. It’s really time and God’s grace.
